I'm feeling laid low by a persistent and strident problem that I suppose has plagued me my entire life.
Its all about holding on...
If you've been following me you know I talk about astrology here and there. I won't properly call myself an astrologer because I haven't devoted quite the amount of study to it that my Rock Star Astrologer, Starlene Breiter has (who is my go to by the way). But I do know a bit more than the average bear.
One of the things I know is that as a Sun Sign Cancer I tend to hold onto things. Knick knacks, money, old friends, negative emotions...you name it. Releasing what isn't good for me isn't my strong suit. I want to hold onto things for a variety of reasons but mostly its guilt.
If I say no, or give up, it means I'm not that good a person because I couldn't stick it out. It means I give up too easily, or I wasn't strong enough. It means I must not have cared if I could abandon it like that.
But really...it isn't that simple. Nothing is that black and white. And sometimes we have to face the facts that what we thought, how we felt, and what we wanted just isn't in the cards, or stars. And that's okay.
Lately I've been holding onto a lot of anger. I got some less than awesome news that while the message wasn't one I object to, I wasn't (am not still) ready to make the shifts that I need to. It left me reeling, feeling pressured, cornered, and hopelessly lost because I have this desire to control and plan and this threw me for a loop about how to do that effectively.
But that's just more holding on. And holding onto anger & hurt can really do a number on the body, as I've been reminded since I've become sick lately. It drains you and pulls you down so those low feelings in your heart and mind take root in the physical (or vice versa).
With the new year here, its often the start of something new to people. We like to begin things on important days. In our minds it gives it more clout and makes us feel like we can actually succeed this time. But success really is about will, about desire. And when that desire supersedes our desire to quit is when we make it through.
And so with that I'll leave you with two things:
1) An affirmation from Louise Hay, something I'm taking a personal interest in while I am feeling under the weather:
I release the pattern in my consciousness that created this condition.
I am willing to change. I love and approve of myself.
2) a favorite piece of writing that always warms my heart when I read it:
When things go wrong, as they sometimes will, when the road you're trudging seems all uphill, when the funds are low, and debts are high, and you want to smile, but you have to sigh, when care is pressing you down a bit, rest if you must, but don't quit. Life is queer with it's twists and turns, as everyone of us sometimes learns, and many failure turns about, when he might have won had he stuck it out; don't give up though the pace seems slow, you may succeed with another blow. Success is failure inside out, the silver tint of the clouds of doubt, and you can never tell how close you are, it may be near when it seems so far; so stick to the fight when you're hardest hit. It's when things seem worse, that you must not quit. (Anonymous)
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