I'm sitting here, foot propped up and being iced, checking my personal email when I start reflecting on my current situation.
In a fit of anger (the cause of which I won't be getting into) I totally lost my cool and had a physical outburst today. While I won't say I'm exactly a pacifist I typically am not one for physical expressions of anger. Today however just wasn't the day for anything but - apparently. And boy am I paying for it.
The whole ordeal has me thinking a lot. Mostly because I can't do much of anything else right now that will allow me not to be reminded of the acute pain in my foot. As you know the Winter Solstice was last Friday. For those who don't know the Winter Solstice marks the first official day of Winter astronomically. It changes year to year, ranging between the 21st to 23rd of December. It also coincides with the entry of the Sun into the sign of Capricorn. The former shift denotes a time of reflection, contemplation, and slowing down. Funny enough if you look about you during the season that is the last thing people are usually doing. There is hustling and bustling, last minute gift buying, long (or short) trips to relatives and while you may not be working for many it doesn't mean its "down time".
As I wrote on the subject a bit over a year ago, Connecting With Our World & Honoring That Connection, this bespeaks a level of being very "out of touch" with our role on this Earth and how we relate to the rest of the web of life. It also frankly saddens me, even though I participate in it just as much as the next person.
This year however, seems to be a definite shift at least for me anyhow. Starting with the beginning of December I've been sick with something respiratory, I've been battling with my anxiety and depression (not uncommon in this season for myself or others either), having a rough time at work, at home, in relationships of all kinds and heck just in life in general. And now as I paused to peep at my personal year number (which is 7) I have a serious *headdesk* moment. 7 is all about spirituality and working on things other than the material aspect. Its a time for self reflection and improvement. In fact, in reading it cautions one to not try to focus on the material/physical aspect of life at all for it will cause difficulties. I can do nothing but laugh at myself as I reflect over the "repeated difficulties" I went through this past year that all seem to make much more sense, even down to today's little incident.
When we fight against tides of life, we tend to get swept out to sea even more strongly by the undercurrent. (Go ahead and tweet that!) This doesn't mean that you need to be a victim or slave to energies outside of you. What I mean is that you need to find that connection and honor it. Honoring that connection, regardless of our personal paths to spirituality, helps us honor our bodies and the world around us.
So how have you seen this lesson - slowing down, being contemplative, and reflecting - this season or in seasons past? Have you been ignoring it or embracing it, and to what affect? Share your answers in the comments below!