Cleaning up some papers I had in my files I came across this writing. I cannot date it and I am cannot even be too sure what was going on when I wrote it but it brought some things to mind I felt relevant enough to share with you all.
Fate, is it real; or just some girl's foolish fancy?
Can it be depended upon, or is it fickle?
How can I know what will be will be?
What do I do, where is the answer to all my questions?
but within myself are the keys.
It's all about control. Many times we get so wrapped up in having our lives "just so" that we forget that there are other people in our lives - those we want and sometimes those we don't want. For most of us things are not 100% perfect even some of the time, but they can be. It's all in how you look at things.
There is a Buddhist saying that all desire leads to suffering. When one hears this certain things likely come to mind immediately. The question arises: do I have to give up every material thing I have to not suffer? Personally this is how I felt when I first heard it, but upon closer inspection I realized the true meaning. When we want what we don't have it brings home that we do not have it. It turns our attention away from what we do have and what we should be grateful for. It plants and nurtures that seed of dissent within us that like a weed will grow and bear the flowers and fruit of envy, jealousy, and dissatisfaction. It is okay to want to do better, to strive to be and do more. But before you take those steps take a good hard look at where you are and be thankful for that. Like you I have lost things, and had things taken from me, and in either case it hurt. But dwelling on what has been lost doesn't bring it back or make one happy.
This writing points to where happiness truly lies, where are our answers truly lie. It is not up to someone or something else to make us happy. We must find those moments within and hold them.